Everything in my life lately has boiled down to before and after. Before my Father died in December and after. It’s not that I’m a different person now, though I am. It’s not that this was a seminal event in my life, though it was. I find that my mental and emotional landscape has changed. Interspersed with the grief and anger I feel more forgiving, more centered and also more open now that he has passed on.<\/p>\n
My expectations of this life have changed. He and I were never close. The relationship I had with him was centered in my own head, not in reality. But through the course of amazing events I now have a much larger family and a different understanding of his difficulties than I had before. \u00a0I can now see him through the eyes of my sisters and brothers and this make an immense difference.<\/p>\n
Forgiveness is meaningful to me when it is not a theory but has a measurable effect on my actions. This father’s day I will honor his memory by living and loving from a space of compassion. \u00a0I will show up for those that I care about and attempt to turn a heart wrenching situation into something that transcends the past. \u00a0This father’s day I will thank him for the gifts he gave me and leave the rest behind.<\/p>\n
Now that he rests in peace, in an odd way, so can I.<\/p>\n
Namaste<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Everything in my life lately has boiled down to before and after. Before my Father died in December and after. It’s not that I’m a different person now, though I am. It’s not that this was a seminal event in my life, though it was. I find that my mental and emotional landscape has changed.<\/p>\n